MY LETTER TO MOM

 

Mom, You've given me so much despite the abuse, Love me from your heart in your own way and the warmth of your touch. Thankx for the gift of life and you're always a friend to me. We have a very Special Bond which only comes from God.....I'm sure you agree with it. As a child I would say I Love You, Mommy. Now you're resting in peace and I love you even more. I can vision your image as the woman who dressed to impress and yes you demanded respect. Thank for the teachings and making me a soldier cause I know why you did it. I feel you are watching me doing my thing and I will make you proud of me. If I could had chosen, I would have picked no other than for you to be my lifelong friend.......

Rest in Peace eternally mommy,

your son, Lelund

THE NERVE OF PEOPLE TODAY TO SAY MOVE ON.........REALLY THO!!!!!

Lately I've been going through this notion about family and I feel like now it may be best to leave all the secrets in the past. I was born Lelund Nathaniel Hollins and my family was very distinguished and had many people who respected them. Today I got so many Hollins family members who contact me with gratitude who want to know the deep history and some of them are potential assholes.

Now for anyone to say to me to get over it and move on. Are you really insane to say that anyone?? Imagine this for your life your mother and grandmother were literally snatched from your family and everybody got the audacity to think I'm ever gonna be normal again.......NEVER IN THIS LIFE!!!!! My grandmother ended up buried out here on the West Coast with a huge F%#$ you to her children and grandchildren back in DC and you say move on!?! If that was you what would you do, even as a teenager?

So here is my bible to all you niggers who can say to a scarred person move on.......God forgives but NEVER will I and I can live with that like REAL man and PRAY for those who deeply hurt not just me but all my first cousins back home in DC. As I see it they got rewarded from the Devil but God is rewarding me with their last wishes and I vowed the day to find my grandparents. They are in Riverside, California. If you were in my shoes do you think you want to hear that garbage either?

To my kinfolk, The Wright Family I know your pain because I know what it really feels like to have relatives snatched away from you and everybody thinks you suppose to be normal after all these years. The best thing people can do for me is stay away from me because I know liars when I see it and you fakes never cared cause it's not you in this position either...........REALLY THO!!!!!!

The Name Change Decision, Part 2

 "Yesterday I made a decision about my name change and I'm getting all this crap from folks don't know me to tell me nothing about this name. There family members don't even know their family history going back to the 1700s but you gonna talk to me about being a Hollins. I don't remember any of you doing this research by hand way before I did it easily online(to be exact since 1988). You folks are really funny but its cool but if you don't know then its on you. I feel disrespected to have folks tell me when my decision is based on my Rastafarian faith and who cares what you think. How many of you family members can live with kidnapping your grandmother without merit or being set up for death by your brother. My hometown is tainted with extortion, betrayal, and numerous death threats from family and these Hollins who I don't know calling out my death because I got this name plus I don't take disrespect from none of them!! Oh I haven't forgot those who grew up with me and I don't need to explain that garbage especially the ones who call me their brother(liars). Honestly racism is not the problem its the black family because with NO unity means NO prosperity. Lastly, the name Hollins is NOT AmeriKKKan anyways so who gives anyone the right to criticize me of my name change. If you so called family say you love me and got my back but where you guys were at when I really needed you the most?"

The Name Change Decision, Part 1

 "My decision to change my name was based on the sickening of a name that has cursed me since birth. Now I represented my father when he did not want family around him but he betrayed me in the end. I was told by my own grandfather Lucius Hollins and my uncle Gerald Semple that a Hollins will turn on you out of a drop of dime but I did not believe them. In 2012 the worst year of my life when I lost both my parents. I realize I have NOBODY who can be that ear like my father was but since he hurt me and the hatred I have for him and the family he made right in my face to have it tainted with lies and more lies. I was told in 1988 to NEVER open the Hollins family tree cause there were dreadful secrets where it could be explained or not.. The past 5 years this name has brought out so many wicked than faithful people which family members never did shit till I came on the scene and it became a worldwide movement. The only thing I cherish more than ever is the facts that Eazy-E and 2Pac are my blood cousins so get fucking use to it, asswipes!! If you don't know about it then ask the ones who knows the family secrets but don't come at me now cause my mind is made up period. Lelund Hollins has been a sickening name since its nothing but constant jokes about being who I am and I’m so tired of it after 4 decades. I want to be left alone and be a hermit as most of us are anyways. Thank you to the ones who got to learn who I am and to the ones who turned on me lately, YOU WAS NEVER MY KINFOLK THEN, NOW AND NEVER WAS MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!"

R.I.P L.N.H

3 Faces of Fear(unfinished work)

THE LELAND SIDE  -  I was born on the day my memory was being in a cold place where two middle-aged people gave me comfort and I realized they were my parents in my mind, The Terrells(Kenneth & Mary).  We lived in the Diggs Park Projects in southside Norfolk, Virginia.  But as the story goes I became a scavenga and then life begun as most of us. I started with the training of cleaning floors which I felt was fun till I was all wet. My grandmother would sit me down to read to me and also taught me to read at an early age so when I started school writing was my main focus.        

        Today as of this writing my handwriting still gets compliments for being so pretty. Now the real story comes to light for me. My grandfather, Kenneth Terrell was a strong, brown complexion man who had a 6th grade education but was knowledgeable on his own terms.  He was working for Virginia National Bank and could finance the household bills like no other person I’ve ever seen in my life. He had a side hustle on the weekends for which he would cut yards in the neighborhood and go to church faithfully every Sunday. The most favorite moment of my childhood was just meeting new friends but I hated moving which comes into the next story. I had peace and fun going to Raleigh, North Carolina during the summers but it was slow and boring at times. The trips on Trailways was fun to me watching the scenery and looking at God’s creation.  

     My beginning was based on a strict moral codes and the love of music was Classical, traditional Gospel and Country & Western. My life was peaceful somewhat with occasional hater-ade within the community and I din't like it.

THE LELUND SIDE……..I was born a Pisces under mysterious circumstances where my parents were never together in my memory but once and that was a pure disaster. I was part of a middle class family of police officers and military which branched into the local and federal government. I was told my family were also avid churchgoers who were involved in the realms of music of the church and the music industry. My father to my memory was a big bearded guy who was a gentle giant and he was the main reason why he kept me sane throughout most of my life. My mother was a beautiful woman who was a member of the (FBI) Federal Bureau Of Investigations and to my knowledge may have been doing secret undercover operations which is still closed but who knows how I will find out her assignments but I do know of one thats too hard to mention and it's history too.

       My grandparents, Lucius Hollins and Zelda Carter-Hollins were two hard working people who just gave me and my cousins knowledge to help us with our future. My grandfather was a gentle but brutally honest man who can either hurt your feelings or just tell it the way he saw things from his own life experiences. He was a great cook and never allowed anyone in his space when preparing foods in the kitchen. My grandmother was a small lady who was a twin but she had distinguished features since she was a reflection of a white woman. She was a well educated lady with a love of helping people and cats. I think she had owned at at least 100 or more cats to my knowledge from all shapes, sizes and breeds. My early memory is cloudy because I was asleep as I was being relocated to Norfolk, Virginia.

     I returned to D.C. early 1988 to discovered Lelund was my birth name so I adapted to this new identity.

THE ALTER-EGO SIDE........UNKNOWN WHEREABOUTS...........?????

WE ARE FAMILY NO MATTER WHAT YOU THINK!!!!

This note was originally written 2/21/2011 before I made the final decision to form the Hollins Foundation Fb group page..........https://www.facebook.com/groups/129494187128164/     

      Hello this post is not just for my immediate family members but to all extended family members across the world, but everyone is welcome to comment, even if you don't agree with the message . I just ask for once that we be respectful of each other . Thanks in advance, I hope you enjoy the read this emotional piece. Please pass this piece along to all members of this family and let them know this from your beloved cousin, as my dedication to you all as my family. Thank you and God bless........

 

 

       FIRST OF ALL THIS PIECE WAS VERY EMOTIONAL FOR ME TO WRITE OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD BUT IT HAS TO BE WRITTEN FOR ALL WHO ARE MY BLOOD RELATED OR FAMILY LINK. THIS YEAR HAS BEEN REALLY EMOTIONAL TO ME CAUSE I REALIZED SECRETS IN MY FAMILY CAN EITHER BE OVERWHELMING OR JUST A PURE HONOR. I WAS BORN INTO A MIXED BREED FAMILY WHICH HAS MADE ME GLAD THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE TAUGHT ME TO RESEARCH IT AND LEARN WHERE YOU COME FROM. I REALIZED I COME FROM RACIST FAMILY MEMBERS, HISTORICAL FAMILY MEMBERS AND ENTERTAINMENT FAMILY MEMBERS SO IT HAS BEEN AN EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTER RIDE FOR ME BUT WE ARE STILL FAMILY. I DISCOVERED MY FATHER SIDE HAS THIS MYSTERIOUS BACKGROUND THAT'S SCARES ME AT TIME CAUSE A SECRET CAN EITHER BENEFIT YOU OR HURT YOU. I DISCOVERED THAT RELATIVES CAN BE SO HARSH ABOUT FAMOUS FIGURES WHEN THEY DON'T EVEN REALIZE THEY ARE CONNECTED TO THE FAMILY WHICH IS IGNORANT. THE HOLLINS NAME IS LINKED TO THE LIKES OF TUPAC SHAKUR, ERIC "EAZY-E WRIGHT, KENNETH" BABYFACE" EDMONDS AND MORE WILL BE ANNOUNCED AT A LATER TIME.

 

       MY FAMILY HAS SOME MANY CELEBRITIES AND HISTORICAL FIGURES THAT MAY EXPLAIN OUR ATTITUDES AND THEY WAY WE ALSO THINK IN THIS CRAZY WORLD. I AM PROUD TO BE APART OR THE FIGURES OF THE PAST LIKE FREDERICK DOUGLASS,

THOMAS JEFFERSON AND THERE'S MORE BEING RESEARCHED WHICH WILL NEVER STOP IN MY LIFETIME. I KNOW I BROKE A FAMILY CODE TO NEVER RESEARCH THIS HISTORY BUT I FEEL IT HAS TO BE DONE SO OUR NEXT GENERATIONS CAN FULLY UNDERSTAND WHERE THEY COME FROM AND ALSO SEE IF ITS LINK TO OUR COUNTRY'S HISTORY. I REALIZE MY FATHER'S PARENTS WAS AN INTERESTING WHERE MY GRANDMOTHER WAS A WHITE LADY WITH CHEROKEE AND BLACK LINKAGE BUT SHE WAS MY LIFE UNTIL SHE PASSED AWAY IN 1991.(GRANDMA I KNOW YOU WOULD BE PROUD OF ME NOW)

       NOW MY SOUTHERN HERITAGE IS THE ULTIMATE SECRETS BEHING THE SLAVERY ISSUES AND CIVIL RIGHTS WHICH HAS TURN ED TO BE VERY FRIGHTENING TO ME. I DISCOVERED THAT MY GREAT-GREAT GRANPARENTS MIGHT'VE BEEN WHITE CAUSE MY GREAT GRANDMOTHER WAS BORN INTO SLAVERY WHICH I CAN STILL FEEL HER PRESENCE EVEN AFTER 30 YEARS SINCE HER DEATH. MY GREAT GRANDFATHER'S SIDE WAS ORIGINALLY FROM THE ISLAND OF ST.CROIX, VIRGIN ISLANDS SO IT EXPLAINS WHY I DESPISE FOLKS WHO USE DREADLOCKS AS A STYLE WHEN I WAS FORBIDDEN AS A CHILD THAT IT WAS A RELIGIOUS ISSUE AND JAMAICANS KNOW EXACTLY WHERE I'M COMING FROM. I WAS BLESSED IN MY LIFE TO BECOME FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE FROM THOSE ISLANDS AND I WAS NEVER TAUGHT THE LANGUAGES BUT I CAN TRANSLATE IT. MY PHILOSOPHY IS THAT MY FAMILY IS A MIXED WITH TYPES OF RECES AND CREEDS THAT I AM PROUD OF REGARDLESS OF RIGHT WING LOBBYIST OR POLITICAL ORGANIZATION WHO TRY TO USE THIS PRO-BLACK PROPAGANDA FOR UNITY.

       HOW CAN WE UNTIY AS A RACE WHEN WE CANNOT EVEN HAVE UNTIY WITHIN THE MAIN STRUCTURE OF THE AMERICAN CULTURE WHICH IS THE BLACK FAMILY PERIOD. MY FAMILY HAS EXTENDED TO OTHER COUNTRIES AND I STILL CLAIM THEM CAUSE WE ARE IN GOD'S EYES........FAMILY!!!  THIS WEEKEND I WAS AMAZED TO FIND MY GODSISTER WHO I WAS TAKING CARE OF WHEN I WAS 13 AND SHE WAS MY HEART AS A BABY AND SHE NOW PART OF MY FAMILY. I AM BLESSED TO SAY FACEBOOK HAS BEEN A TOOL TO UNITE SO MANY PEOPLE IN MY LIFE FROM ALL THE ADVENTURES I HAVE DONE AND STILL DOING AS WE SPEAK. MY FAMILY HAS BEEN MY BACKBONE SINCE THE DAYS OF MY BIRTH IN D.C. TO THE STREETS OF NORFOLK AND VIRGINIA BEACH BACK TO D.C. WHERE MY FAMILY AND EXTENDED FRIENDS BECAME MY INFLUENCE TO WHERE I AM TODAY.

 

        NOW I AM IN HOLLYWOOD DOIN MY DREAM OF WORKING WITH ARTISTS TO BE REVEALED ABOUT MORE CELEBRITIES WHO ARE RELATED TO ME SO I GUESS IT NEVER STOPS. I WANNA SAY TO ALL THE FAMILIES WHO ARE RELATED TO ME(HOLLINS, SEMPLE, CARTER, SAPP, TERRELL, SMITH, SIMPSON, HARRISON, JONES, WILLIAMS, BLAKE, BROWN, TWYMAN, WILSON, JOHNSON, GLOVER, McBRIDE, GILLIS, OFFUTT, IVEY, FISHER, POWELL, WASHINGTON, BUTLER, RUFFNER, ANDERSON, ALLEN, BRANDON, CAIN, and it keeps goin....)..DESPITE EVERYTHING THE PAST HAS DONE TO US WE ARE STILL FAMILY REGARDLESS SO IF WE GONNA STOP THE GENOCIDE AND STEREOTYPES OF SOCIETY'S INFLUENCES ABOUT HATE IN OUR COMMUNITIES, THE ONLY SOLUTION IS THE STRENGTHENING OF THE BLACK FAMILY WITHIN AND YES WE ARE FAMILY TILL DEATH DO US PART UNTIL WE ARE ALL UNITED IN GOD'S KINGDOM AS ONE BIG FAMILY.

DEPRESSION, Part 1

 The most personal statement of my life......."The world is an evil place where people can actually act like they love you but its a complete act or fairy tale. Depression is a very dangerous mental disease that take people away from reality and the unexpected happens. Now I have been blesed to be alive 40 years and I have lost everything from the people who really cared about me. I remembered peace and tranquility when they were around me then they left me without saying goodbye. I have experience the bitch side of women from my own mother to where today I really don't know anymore. I can say i wish I could get them back for 5 minutes to tell me what I'm doing wrong. I never do anything to anyone unless they had it coming to them. I have so called friends, frienemies, enemies and associates but no true loyalty. I have been backstabbed, threatened with death, cursed and even my children hates me now but that's the way of the world. I was so blessed to have my grandfather, Lucius Hollins whom I idolized cause he didn't give a damn about what you said or felt. He told about how family were and I saw it. He told me about how you really love a woman but I don't see what he saw about it. Love is only a metaphor of emotions that can either cause you to kill or kill yourself. Sometimes I keep my personal side away from the public because I protect it. When I suffered my first heart attack I was 3000 miles away alone and destroyed that nobody really gave a fucked until they saw me in person. I'm mentally and emotionally scarred but God has never left me. I don't want no pity nor advice because God talks to me in ways that none can imagine. Honestly, I feel like checking out and I feel like if I can't be free and respected as the next man then I don't want to be here anymore. Today is the first of many days alone and I feel peace without jokers, liars and whatever elements that continues to hurt me. Please God stop this inner pain and give me back my mind. amen!"

THE DEPRESSION CONFESSION

"After the death of my mother I discovered she had mental illness during her time with the FBI which explains our dreaded relationship. Now I feel it's an Inheritary disease especially in the Hollins family that's not addressed at all. I've lived with this mental illness disease under my own terms and fuck the medicines. In 2002 I suffered a minor mental breakdown and I was prescribed several different meds and it literally destroyed my life but I BOUNCE BACK and I've dealt with it alone and don't need family or anyone who'll do nothing but play games which I don't need. People always suggest that I need a support group but what good is that when the counselors aren't recovered themselves or they don't understand your situation. Today at my age I have dealt with my depression better than the past because I learn to stay away from people and stay closer to God. The world is a masquerade because people change just by removing their mask of who they are so who wants that around you? So I hope now you FULLY understand when I tell you that you literally don't know me but God knows."

The Word on the Net, Part 1..........(A Must Read!)

 "Today 2014 we act like our country has changed for the better which is a blind-sided fake ass lie. I'm glad I had great teachers such as my mother and my southern family who back then was still healing from the dreaded 60s. Yes I was taught to be very observant and not be apart of a problem but be the solution to it. The 80s I saw the drug epidemic overpowered our community and turned my people into institutionalized slaves to the rhythm of cocaine. I've lost family and friends to the drug culture so to be alive at 40 is PRICELESS especially a black man in AmeriKKKa. The 90s I was a participant in may events for the healing of our community even attended the historical Million Man March in my hometown. I also met the legendary late Minister Dr. Khalid Abdul Muhammad that day and it changed me as a black man. Now the 21st century is here and what do we see that's really changed besides a Afro-American President who gets mad disrespect from everybody including blacks. I don't see my country giving President Obama the mad respect as former D.C. mayor Marion Barry gets from the people of the Nation's Capital. Marion Barry did more for the blacks in D.C. than most mayors do in their own cities. We the people of D.C. will always love him and he is our mayor for life regardless if he never runs for major office again. To the secret groups of women who've condemned me for what I said about strong black women leaders not participating to show young girls that life is more than twerking and being whores but I am wrong for being a black man concerned about these little girls' future. I rather see our youths do more constructed things instead of being something that's a pure figment of the imagination. WAKE UP EVERYBODY and stop the genocide of lies and the brainwashing of our lives before we end up back in slavery once again."

HOW DO YOU MAKE LOVE TO A BLACK WOMAN

 How Do You Make Love to a Black Woman?

 

How do you make love to a Black Woman?

Romantically and Patiently;

Take the time to make love to her mind.

Fulfill all her midnight wishes.

Cover her entire body with soft wet kisses.

Tell her, so that she will know!

There's no place on her body

Your tongue won't go.

And when you make love to a Black Woman, You love her real slow.

 

How do you make love to a Black Woman?

How do you make love to a Black Woman?

Passionately and Sincerely;

Let her sweetness become your weakness.

Do not use just your manhood, but include your ear.

Listen to the sweet sound of her moans

And see what you hear.

Feel the warmth and care of her loving embrace.

Place your mouth on hers and savor the taste.

 

How do you make love to a Black Woman?

How do you make love to a Black Woman?

Sensually and Honestly;

Say what you mean and mean what you say.

Tell her you love her,

More and more with each passing day.

Let all of her fantasies that dance in her head Become her moonlight reality When it's time to go to bed.

Mutual satisfaction is a lover's plan.

Love her 'cause you are in love with her.

She's your woman and you're her man.

Love your Black Woman with your Mind, Body and Soul.

She's the most precious gift on this Earth. She's worth her weight in gold.

How do you make love to a Black Woman?

There's one true way to start.

To make love to a Black Woman just give her all of your heart.

A SCAVENGA'S PRAYER - 6/1/2013

 MY PRAYER: As I look into the sky I'm very thankful to you Lord for giving me the gift to understand what my purpose in this life. Forgive those who've hated on me since I was a little boy because you gave the opportunity to shine despite my trials and tribulations. Thank you God for blessing me with 3 beautiful and intelligent teenage children(Shay, Domo & Diamond) for always understanding what I am about and their love keeps me motivated. Please forgive me for my sins that I've created and to those I've hurt during this journey in my life. I am so grateful to you Lord for showing me compassion and patience towards my fellow mankind even when I'm selfish and angered at times. Thank you for the many blessings even when I felt I didn't deserve it. Lord, I wanna thank you for showing me that you're real despite the collapse of my marriage, the mild stroke symptoms, homelessness, the congestive heart failure plus a heart scare recently, the traumatic losses of my kids' mother, and my parents but I am still here. I am forever merciful for what I've accomplished so far in my life and I'm not finish yet in your eyes. This is only a new beginning to chapters not even written yet.

In Jesus name, the Lord is My Shepherd............


AMEN!

WHO IS THE REAL ONE??

  IS THERE A SUCH THING AS A RIGHT ONE? WELL LET ME TELL YOU WHAT TAGGED HAS PUT FORTH ME IN THE LAST 3 YEARS, A LOT OF MALES AND FEMALES WHO SAY THEY WANT SOMEONE OR JUST LOOKING FOR AN AFFAIR. SO HOW CAN YOU SAY YOU WANT A REAL ONE WHO SHOWS HIS PENIS OR SHE SHOWS HER VAGINA TO THE WHOLE INTERNET WORLD. TODAY I FEEL LIFE HAS GIVEN ME THE GOOD, BAD OR WHATEVER GOD HAS PUT FORTH TO ME. IF YOU FEEL YOU'RE ALONE THAN YOU STIL GOT GOD WHO CAN STIMULATE THE MIND AND IF YOU FEEL THE RIGHT ONE IS THERE THAN YOU SHOULD KNOW THE FEELINGS OR IT'S JUST A MASQUERADE.

 

 

Joyce's Dream Publishing 2009

George Benson ~ Love X Love 1980 Disco Purrfection Version

AM I MY BROTHER'S KEEPER(DEDICATED TO ALL MY BROTHERS)

 THE FIRST GREATEST CRIME OF MAN WAS CAIN KILLING HIS BROTHER ABEL OVER JEALOUSY. SO WHAT DO I FEEL ABOUT THAT??? MY PERSONAL BELIEF IS THAT I LOVE ALL MY BROTHER WHETHER ITS MY BLOOD, STEP, HALF OR MY STREET HOMIES BUT WHEN ONE COMES OUT TO THREATEN ME......DIFFERENT STORY!!

 

          TONIGHT I GOT THREATEN FROM A PERSON WHO I FELT WAS BLOOD BUT BETRAYED ME OVER DISRESPECTFUL SHIT AND AS AN OLDER BROTHER I SETTLED THAT DISPUTE THAT CAUSED IT. WHEN PEOPLE TALK ABOUT FAMILY IT BOTHERS ME TREMENDOUSLY. I'VE HAD ISSUES WITH MY BROTHERS BUT WE ALWAYS WORK IT OUT REGARDLESS.

 

          I AM NOT MY BROTHER'S KEEPER IS A DEEP ANSWER THAT GOES BACK TO WHEN GOD ASK CAIN AND THAT WAS HIS ANSWER WHICH I FEEL IS A CURSED ANSWER. DO YOU REMEMBER IN NEW JACK CITY WHEN NINO AND THE CASH MONEY BROTHERS TOAST TO THAT AND THAT WAS THE NEW STREET SLOGAN OF THE TIMES.

 

         AS THE YEAR 2010 COMES TO A CLOSE AFTER A YEAR OF TURMOIL, BACKSTABBING AND OTHER LIFE'S DRAMA I DECIDED THAT IN 2011 THE ONLY THING I RATHER HAVE IS MY KIDS AND THOSE WHO STUCK BY ME WHEN THINGS HAVE GOTTEN ROUGH AND HARD. SO I AM NEVER MY BROTHER'S KEEPER ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU THREATEN THE LIFE OF YOUR BLOOD AND THINK I FORGIVE YOU AFTERWARDS.....WELL I RATHER BURN IN HELL FOR WHAT I BELIEVE IN AND ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME FOR THAT AND NOT ANYONE ELSE PERIOD!!!!

 

THIS IS DEDICATED TO ALL THE BROTHERS IN MY PAST, MY PRESENT AND THE UPCOMING FUTURE WHO'S UNDERSTAND THE REAL MEANING OF THE WORD, BROTHER.

Courtesy of Joyce's Dream Publishing, Copyright 2009

REDEMPTION(My dedication to the memory of my maternal grandfather......25 years later)

 As December approaches I've finally feel redemption for the fact a quarter of a century ago my grandfather, Kenneth Wilbur Terrell(1920-1985) suddenly passed away after pancreatic cancer treatment. The memory of that day is still vivid with the cold and rainy day of December 23rd with a sudden sound of thunder and the flash of lightning that almost blinded me. So that moment I felt him leave me but he appeared later that night in a vision of an angelic glow to assure me everything will be alright. For the next 24+ years I realize how I despise the holidays cause I see fakeness from family to so called friends and they use that day as a day of Christ's birth and Santa Claus. I have to say I truly thank God for the incredible journey to be alive a quarter of a century and understand my redemption and destiny in life. Thank you Pop for always bein there with me from the wrestling ring to the music industry. I hope to see you at crossroads of Heaven with all the loved ones who awaits my arrival.

Courtesy of Joyce's Dream Publishing, Copyright 2008

Why Me Lord?.................by {theprodigalson}:since 74

 The main question that I wonder and maybe to your thoughts is why me Lord? Do you feel you don't deserve it or is it something unexplainable. As the year comes to a close there has been many times that mysterious question comes up. So as I stroll down Hollywood and see the beauty of it all then all of a sudden it hits me. I think of all the haters from all levels can either love you, hate you or just respect you.

So I wonder why me Lord that I gotta deal with this madness of folks' happiness or ignorance. I sit back and think about the future of my life is coming true and I still say why me Lord? When I make decisions that'll affect myself and the people I love so it comes to me again, why me Lord? Now the sun sets in the West and I drop to my knees and I thank Him for blessing me with knowledge and wisdom to fully understand the life for what it means.

The answer to my question is something that's a spiritual stimulation that only God can answer to you all the time if you can see the light.

Courtesy of Joyce's Dream Publishing, Copyright 2008

From Hollins to Hollywood

 The most difficult decision to put the VALOR on hold was brought on by several aspects of positive influences. For a very long time I always felt that one day I would leave the DMV to venture the land of Hollywood. For the past few years I became part of companies and groups but none gave me more confident and respect in this game was Pro Music Records in Los Angeles, California. 

I took my father's childhood nickname of the last name with the modification of the letters and it made sense. The industry has been plaqued with all types of characters but to have artists, managers, executives and haters calling you a fraud and a fake.....well that was the last straw. 

So to shut up all the nonbelievers I painstakenly made the most shocking decision to put the Unmatched Valor Entertainment on ice and cut business ties within the mid-atlantic region to go to the West Coast. So as of this writing California has been a refreshing and rejuvenating experience. I am happy to be in Cali and part of the Pro Music fam.....

Courtesy of Joyce's Dream Publishing - Copyright 2008

THE WORLD IS A MASQUERADE IN MY EYES SO WHAT HAPPEN TO US???

  I REMEMBER AS A CHILD NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD AND THAT WAS WHEN THE WORLD WAS INNOCENT. HOW MANY CAN REMINISCE OF THE TIMES OF RESPECTING YOUR ELDERS AND FEELING GOOD THAT LOVE WAS NOT SO SERIOUS. I REMEMBER MY GRANDMOTHER DISCIPLINING AND THEN EXPLAINING WHAT I DID AND SHE STILL LOVED ME. I REMEMBER IN THE PROJECTS OF DIGGS PARK  IN NORFOLK, VA WAS WHERE THE SANITY OF SLIMM BIGGUMZ WAS BORN DUE TO THE FACTS OF PEER PRESSURE AND CRUELTY OF THE KIDS OF THAT TIME BUT WE ALL WERE NOT HATERS YET JUST KIDS. I REMEMBER WHEN CHURCHES WAS SO SACRED WITH LOOKS AND THE IMAGE OF THE CONGREGATION. SO WHAT HAS HAPPEN IN THE LAST 30 YEARS??? THE MUSIC AT THAT TIME FOR ME WAS ENJOYING REV. JAMES CLEVELAND, MAHALIA JACKSON, CLARA WARD, DIXIE HUMMINGBIRDS AND THE LISTS OF THAT TIME WAS ENDLESS. I LOVED TO SEE PEOPLE GET A HOLY GHOST AND FEELING THE SPIRIT CAUSE IT WAS AN EXPERIENCE FOR ME.

       THE STREETS BEFORE THE DRUG EPIDEMIC WAS A PLACE WHERE THE REAL SCHOOL OF HARD KNOCKS FOR ME AND I HAD TO FIGHT MY WAY TO SHOW AND PROVE I BELONG EVEN THOUGH I WAS CHURCH KID. THERE WERE MANY MOMENTS I WANTED TO HURT THEM BUT I WAS TAUGHT TO FORGIVE AND LOVE THEM CAUSE THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO. I REMEMBER FIGHTING ONE DAY AND THEN FRIENDS THE NEXT, SO WHAT HAPPEN TO THAT MENTALITY?? CHURCH WAS A PLACE TO FEEL SAFE FROM THE ILLS OF THE WORLD'S MADNESS. NOW CHURCH IS FASHION SHOW OF LOOKS INSTEAD OF THE WORD. I DO NOT REMEMBER LADIES SHOWING OFF THEIR CLEAVAGE AND DOIN ANYTHING THAT WAS SUSPICIOUS TO THE CONGRGATION. YES THAT LIFE WAS DESTROYED BY A SICK PERSON WHO ROBBED ME OF MY INNOCENCE OF BEIN A KID BUT I STILL ASKED GOD TO FORGIVE THEM EVEN THOUGH TO THIS DAY IT'S SO UNCOMFOTABLE TO SIT IN A CHURCH. SO I CHOSE MUSIC CAUSE IT NEVER HURT ME PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY OR SEXUALLY.

       TODAY THE WORLD THROUGH MY EYES IS IN THE LAST DAYS AND TIMES CAUSE WHAT HAPPEN TO OUR VALUES AND MORALS FOR EACH OTHER. BACK IN THE DAY IT WAS TABOO TO HAVE A GIRL PREGNANT IT WAS LIKE A HUGE ISSUE AMONG THE OLDER PEOPLE. IT WAS EVEN TABOO TO DISCUSS ISSUES LIKE SEX, DRUGS AND SACRED MUSIC. TODAY SOCIETY CONDONES THE ISSUES THAT HAVE DESTROYED MANY LIVES ESPECIALLY IN THE BLACK COMMUNITY. THE YOUTH TODAY DON'T HAVE NO CLUE TO HOW BACK THEN PEACE WAS A THING TO HAVE ESPECIALLY WITH GOD IN OUR HOUSEHOLDS BUT NOW OUR KIDS DISRESPECT US AS IF THEY NEVER HAD ANY HOME TRAINING. WHERE ARE THE ROLE MODELS THAT KEPT US GROUNDED FROM THE STREETS TO THE CHURCH. THE TELEVSION OF THAT TIME DID MORE TEACHING THAN EXPLOITING THE NEGATIVES OF THE WORLD WHICH WAS FORBIDDEN BACK IN THE DAY.

       TONIGHT I NEARLY BROKE DOWN IN TEARS WHEN SOME ARTISTS CALL ME A PHONY OR FRAUD TO AN INDUSTRY THAT'S MORE LIKE THE DAYS OF SODOM AND GORMARRAH. THERE HAVE BEEN BIG NAMES WHO PROMISE YO UTHIS DREAM WHICH IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN SINCE YOU HAVE TO GIVE UP SOMETHING TO GET SOMEWHERE. I'M A PERSON WHO CAME FROM THE HARD STREETS TO WHERE I'M STILL STRUGGLING TO MAINTAIN MY SANITY IN A MASQUERADE OF CHARACTERS(ex. haters, scoundrels, wolves, snakes, sconions, backstabbers, etc.....) SO WHAT HAPPEN TO TRUE TALENTS WITH NO STINGS ATTACH WHICH HAS NEVER EXISTED EVER FROM MANY STORIES IN THIS INDUSTRY. AS A CHILD 30 YEARS AGO I WANTED TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN THE WORLD FOR MY TALENTS BUT I CANNOT BELIEVE IN A FEW WEEKS I WILL BE RELOCATING TO LOS ANGELES TO FULFILL MY DESTINY AND TRY TO HELP GUIDE MANY DESERVING ARTISTS TO THEIR DESTINY.

       THERE'S BEEN SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE QUESTIONED ME ABOUT HOW I HAVE OVER 5,000 FRIENDS FROM MY PAGES AND IT QUITE SIMPLY; I WAS AN ADVENTUROUS PERSON FROM THE DAY ONE TIL NOW. I'VE TRAVELED MANY ROADS AND MET MANY INTERESTING PEOPLE WHO'VE EITHER BEEN MY FRIENDS, ASSOCIATES, COWORKERS, ENEMIES AND FRIENEMIES FROM ALL ASPECTS OF MY JOURNEY. I THANK GOD THAT I'M STILL HERE TO SAY THAT PROUDLY IN A SENSE OF THE WORLD'S JEALOUSY. SO NOW I FEEL GUILTY TO HAVE THIS LIFE WHICH I CAN SAY GOD HAS BLESSED ME TO OVERCOME MANY OBSTACLES TO ACHIEVE THE DREAM OF A LIFETIME. I GAVE MY WORD TO GOD THAT I HELP THOSE WHO REALLY NEED THEIR DESTINY FULFILLED BUT I KNOW THERE WILL BE MORE DANGER AWAITS ME IN THE SHADOW OF DEATH BUT I KNOW HE WILL PROTECT ME THROUGH IT. AS OF THIS WRITING I'VE BEEN CALLED SHADY, FRAUDALENT, PHONY FROM INDIVIDUALS EVEN THREATS FROM THE MOST UNUSUAL PEOPLE SUCH AS THE NATION OF ISLAM WHICH I NEVER DESERVED BUT ITS COOL.

        AS I END THIS PIECE I HOPE THIS WRITING CAN HELP OPEN EYES TO PEOPLE OF A REAL MAN NOT A SHIESTY MAN WHO'S OUT FOR GREED AND ALL FOR SELF CAUSE PERSONALLY I HAVE GOD ON MY SIDE AND WHO NEEDS THE FAKE SUBSTANCE OF THE WORLD. LORD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH AND GUIDANCE TO FULFILL MY DESTINY AND HELP THOSE WHO HELP THEMSELVES.......amen

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*COMING SOON*....."WADE in the WATER:THE BALLAD of a VALOR SOLDIER"....THE TRUE STORY OF MY LIFE

 THE DECISION TO RECORD MY MEMOIRS OF MY LIFE STORY WAS BASED ON MY MEMORIES OF MANY ADVENTURES FROM THE DAYS IN NORFOLK'S DIGGS PARK, THE SHOCKING DEATH OF MY GRANDFATHER AND WATCHING MY GRANDMOTHER SUFFER A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN AFTERWARDS WAS TRAUMATIC TO ME EVEN TO THIS DAY. SOON I WAS RIPPING AND RUNNING AROUND THE STREETS OF VIRGINIA BEACH AFTER A SICKENING ENCOUNTER WITH A FAMILY FRIEND TO THE 20+ PLUS YEAR GRUDGE BETWEEN MY MOTHER AND I.

THEN AFTER RELOCATING BACK TO WASHINGTON, D.C., THE STORIES AT THAT POINT GO FROM SEX, DRUGS, ALCOHOL, INCEST, LOW PROFILE CAPERS, SUICIDE THOUGHTS AND THE REBIRTH OF THE ALTER-EGO OF SLIMM BIGGUMZ AND THE THOUGHTS OF BEING A FATHER PLUS THE HEARTBREAKING DECISION TO LEAVE AFTER THE SHOCKING DEATH OF MY LITTLE COUSIN, NICHESHIA SEMPLE.

THEN THE STORY GOES INTO THE TUMULTUOUS 15 YEAR ADVENTURES IN NORTH CAROLINA TO THE LIFE LONG DREAM IN MUSIC IS NOW COMING TRUE AND THE FINDER OF A NEW LOVE SO WHEN THIS BOOK DROPS EVERY MALE AND FEMALE, MAN, WOMAN OR CHILD SHOULD COP THE BOOK FOR INSPIRATION AND REDEMPTION.

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THE MESSAGE REMIX: THE BIBLE In CONTEMPORARY LANGUAGE/A DAVID PSALM 23

 GOD, MY SHEPHERD!

I DON'T NEED A THING.

YOU HAVE BEDDED ME DOWN IN LUSH MEADOWS,

YOU FIND ME QUIET POOLS TO DRINK FROM.



TRUE TO YOUR WORD,

YOU LET ME CATCH MY BREATH

AND SEND ME IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.

EVEN WHEN THE WAY GOES THROUGH

DEATH VALLEY,

I'M NOT AFRAID

WHEN YOU WALK AT MY SIDE.

YOUR TRUSTU SHEPHERD'S CROOK

MAKES ME FEEL SECURE.

YOU SERVE ME A SIX COURSE DINNER

RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY ENEMIES.

YOU REVIVE MY DROOPING HEAD,

MY CUP BRIMS WITH BLESSING.

YOUR BEAUTY AND LOVE CHASE AFTER ME

EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE.

I'M BACK HOME IN THE HOUSE OF GOD

FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. amen

SOMETHING 4 U MAMA(Dedicated to my mothers, Joyce, Mary, Zelda & Farrie Bell)

 I REALIZED WHEN I LISTEN TO "A SONG FOR MAMA" I GET TEARY EYED CAUSE EVEN THOUGH IT'S BEEN 20 YEARS SINCE WE LAST SAW EACH OTHER I STILL KNOW WE HAVE A CONNECTION LIKE MY MANNERISM, MY ATTITUDE AND HOW YOU FELT I SHOULD BE IN LIFE: A TRUE MAN. I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH HATIN YOU FOR LEAVING ME ALONE WHEN I KNEW YOU WAS TRYIN TO TEACH ME ON HOW TO BE A MAN AND WE KNOW WHEN YOU BECOME A TEENAGER THINGS ARE SO CLOUDY AND YOU ONLY THINK OF YOURSELF AND WHAT'S NOT IMPORTANT IN LIFE.

A MOTHER IS A GEM, A PEARL THAT ONLY SHOWS YOU THE LOVE THAT NOBODY UNDERSTANDS NOT EVEN YOUR COMPANIONS OR SPOUSES EVEN UNDERSTAND BUT YOU HAVE TO LIVE LIFE AND BECOME A PARENT. SOMETIMES IT SO HARD TO CONVINCE THE PERSON YOU LOVE THAT YOU DON'T KNOW ME LIKE MY MOTHER. MY MOTHER IS A STRONG MINDED WOMAN WHO I FELT WAS THE FIRST PERSON WHO I CLASSIFIED AS THE TERM, "DIVA" AND SHE WAS MY EVERYTHING THAT MADE ME LOVE WOMEN FOR WHO THEY ARE TODAY. I'VE BECOME SO DEPRESSED AND FRUSTRATED THAT NOBODY CAN SETTLE YOUR WOUNDS LIKE MOTHERS OR GRANDMOTHERS THEY ARE THE QUEENS OF OUR HEARTS AND FOR A CHILD TO DISRESPECT THAT IS A CRYING SHAME.

TODAY I SIT DOWN AND PRAY THAT GOD GIVES ME THE STRENGTH AND GUIDANCE TO LET MY MOTHER FORGIVE ME FOR THE WAY I WAS BACK IN THE DAY WHEN I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND LIFE UNTIL I GOT OUT THERE AND FULLY UNDERSTAND WHAT SHE WAS TALKING ABOUT.TODAY MY MOTHER IS A MINISTER SO I FEEL LIKE IT'S MY MISSION TO RECONCILE WITH HER AND JUST GROW UP. I HATE WHEN KIDS TAKE THEIR MOTHERS FOR GRANTED WHEN THEY DON'T REALIZE YOU HAVE ONLY ONE MOTHER IN THIS LIFE. I WAS TOLD THERE WAS TWO TYPES OF WOMEN TO BE MOMS, FIRST MOTHER IS THE BIRTH MOM WHO CARRIED AND NURTURED YOU IN HER BELLY FOR 9 MONTHS AND GAVE YOU LIFE AND THE MOMMY ARE THE MOMS WHO TEACHES YOU TO WALK , TALK AND GIVES YOU INFLUENCE ON BECOMING A PERSON AND TAKE THEIR LIFE's LESSONS IN LIFE TO CARRY ON TO OUR CHILDREN. WHAT IF A MOTHER NEVER TAUGHT US THE SURVIVAL TECHNIQUES TO DEAL WITH THIS CRAZY LIFE?

NOBODY CAN SAY WHO YOU REALLY ARE BUT YOU'RE MOTHER AND WHO CAN CHANGE IT. DON'T FORGET THE BIBLE SAYS HONOR HER OR YOUR DAYS GONNA LONG SO THINK ABOUT EVERY TIME YOU DISRESPECT OR HURT HER WHERE WILL YOU BE IN THE FUTURE? I'M SO BLESSED TO SAY THAT I HOPE SHE CAN FORGIVE ME AND JUST MOVE ON AND BE A FAMILY AGAIN CAUSE TRULY I WISH SHE COULD SOOTHE AND CALM MY INNER SOUL AND LIKE THE SONG SAYS YOU ARE THE FOOD TO MY SOUL. 

Dedicated to the women who put the strength and knowledge that became Lelund Hollins, I love ya'll with all my heart and soul and I wish the ones who are gone were here so when things become so gray they can turn it into sunshine. I miss you ladies terribly and you're never forgotten.



love always your son and grandson.

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EVERYTHING MUST CHANGE

 TODAY I REALIZE IN LIFE THINGS MUST CHANGE CAUSE WE HAVE TO AGE WITH WISDOM WITH TIME. I REMEMBER WHEN DRUGS WASN'T EVEN A BIG PROBLEM LIKE TODAY AND EVERYONE GAVE ONE ANOTHER RESPECT. I REMEMBER WHEN NEIGHBORHOODS GAVE A DAMN ABOUT US AND TO THE ONES WHO MADE THE DECISION TO STAY THE SAME. I TELL KIDS CAN YOU IMAGINE LESS STRESS ABOUT THINGS CAUSE WE HAD GRANDPARENTS WHO PUT THE CHRISTIAN INFLUENCES IN OUR LIVES SO WE TOTALLY UNDERSTOOD WHAT LIFE HAS IN STORE FOR US. I TRULY WISH THOSE DAYS TO RETURN BUT THEY ARE PART OF OUR RICH PAST.

I REMEMBER WHEN MY GRANDMOTHER KEEPING IN THE HOUSE FROM ALL THE BAD INFLUENCES BUT I FELT TRULY WANTED TO BE LIKE THE GUYS ON THE BLOCK. I CAN STILL HEAR MY GRANDMOTHER SAYIN, "YOU HAVE NO FRIEND but GOD and THAT'S ALL YOU NEED IN LIFE" AND I NEVER REALLY UNDERSTOOD IT UNTIL NOW. I TOOK TO MUSIC TO ESCAPE THE WORLD OF DENIAL FROM WHAT I REALLY WANTED AND WHEN LOVE CAME IN MY LIE I WANTED IT BADLY BUT I HAD TO GROW UP AND SUFFER A LOT TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I WANTED IN LIFE.

SO EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD WILL CHANGE EVEN WHEN MOTHER NATURE COMES ALONG TO SACRIFICE THOSE WHO DON'T THINK ABOUT CHANGE IN LIFE EVEN IN DISASTER. I REMEMBER LOOKING AT THE BLUE SKIES AND THINKING HOW BEAUTIFUL THIS WORLD IS BACK IN 1980. NOW WE'RE EXPERIENCING THE LOSS OF THE OLD, MYSTERIES UNFOLDING IN FRONT OF OUR EYES AND THAT'S THE WAY OF LIFE. THE YOUNG TODAY WILL BECOME OLD AND WILL THEY UNDERSTAND THE WISDOM AND THE SUFFERINGS OF THINGS CHANGING BUT IT WILL COME SOONER THAN WE EXPECT WHICH WE ARE IN THE LAST DAYS AND TIMES.

TODAY IF NOTHIN BUT PEOPLE WHO THINK WE'LL NEVER CHANGE LITTLE DO THEY KNOW EVERYTHING MUST CHANGE THAT'S WHAT MAKES US SO WISE AND EXPERIENCE IN OUR LIFE

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THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A REAL MAN OR A REAL "NIGGA"?, pART 2

 WELL FELLAS IT'S TIME FOR SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT AND IT'S ABOUT A REAL MAN OR REAL "NIGGA"? WELL LET ME HIT YOU WITH PART 1: THE REAL NIGGA DO YOU GIVE UP, WELL IT'S BASED ON SO MANY SITUATIONS AND ISSUES. A REAL MAN SHOULD TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY OF HIS ACTIONS AND NOT BLAME ANYONE FOR IT. A REAL MAN SHOULD BE TEACHING HIS KIDS THE DIFFERENCES ABOUT LIFE AND HOW TO CONDUCT THEMSELVES AROUND ADULTS. TODAY SO CALLED MEN THINK THEY HARD CAUSE THEY GOT MUSCLES AND THINK EVERY WOMAN WANTS THEM. THESE ARE THE SAME GUYS WHO ARE QUICK TO STRIKE A WOMAN BECAUSE THEY THINK IT MAKES THEM A REAL MAN....NEGRO PLEASE!!!!!!

SO THINK TO YOURSELF DO YOU HAVE A REAL MAN? I'M NOT BASHING MY HOMIES HERE ON TAGGED BUT I'VE ENCOUNTERED FEMALES WHO SAY MEN ARE THIS OR MEN ARE THAT BUT REMEMBER WE COME FROM GENERATIONS OF MEN EITHER MADE MISTAKES BUT IT WAS THE STRONG MINDED WOMEN WHO FORGIVE AND STILL TOOK SOME BACK. I CAN RECALL MY GRANDFATHER(MY DAD'S SIDE) CHEATED ON MY GRANDMOTHER MANY TIMES BUT HE TAUGHT ME TO CHOOSE YOUR DECISIONS WISELY WHEN IT COMES TO WOMEN. HE NEVER ONCE HIT MY GRANDMOTHER BUT DOES THAT MAKE HIM A REAL MAN FOR THE OTHER MISTAKES HE MADE?

FELLAS WHAT MAKES A REAL MAN WHO CHEATS ON A GOOD WOMAN ? FIRST OF ALL WOMAN IS THE MAIN REASON WHY WE BREATH TODAY IT WAS WOMAN WHO TAUGHT US TO WALK AND PRETTY MUCH SHOWED US THE LOVE AND HAPPINESS WE NEEDED TO ADVENTURE INTO THIS WORLD. A WOMAN IS LIKE A FLOWER SOMETHING THAT HAS TO BE HANDLE CAREFULLY BUT THERE ARE SOME WHO ARE MORE MANLY THAN MEN. I FEEL IF YOU BEAT UP A WOMAN YOU'LL BEAT UP ANY WOMAN(MOM, SISTER, GRANDMOM, FEMALE COUSINS, ETC...) AND IF YOU SAY I'M LYING THAN YOU ARE IN DENIAL NO FORGET THAT...YOU'RE A BOLD FACE LIAR!!!!!!!!!

A REAL MAN CAN COME IN AND CHANGE A WOMAN'S LIFE BY ACCEPTING HER FULL PACKAGE...HER KIDS? WHY NOT, WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE SPECIAL WHO CAN TEACH THEM TO SHOW A WOMAN RESPECT WHEN THE OTHER MAN ISN'T DOIN IT. A REAL MAN CAN WIPE AWAY A WOMAN'S TEARS WHEN THERE'S SORROW AROUND HER. YOU BECOME THE SUNSHINE IN HER LIFE. A REAL MAN CAN BE MISTER MOM BY COOKING, SEWING, TAKING CARE OF THE KIDS AND MAKING SURE THE HOUSE IS CLEAN AND HAVE A BUBBLE BATH READY FOR HER AFTER A ROUGH WORK DAY. SO DOES YOUR REAL MAN THAT FOR YOU OR DO YOU HAVE A SO CALLED REAL NIGGA? SO FELLAS TAKE A LOOK INTO A MIRROR AND THINK WHICH ARE YOU, A REAL 100% MAN OR A REAL 100% BITCH NIGGA!!? YOU KNOW WHO YOU REALLY ARE SO STOP FRONTIN?!!!!

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THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A REAL MAN OR A REAL "NIGGA", PART 1

 WELL FELLAS IT'S TIME FOR SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT AND IT'S ABOUT A REAL MAN OR REAL "NIGGA"? WELL LET ME HIT YOU WITH PART 1: THE REAL NIGGA?

THIS IS THE PART WHERE WE ARE THAT CAUSE WE FEEL IT MAKES US THE BIG SHOT SO WHAT MAKES US THAT IN THE FIRST PLACE? I DECIDED TO DEFINE THE TERM, N.I.G.G.A=NOTHIN INVOLVES GETTIN GOALS ACCOMPLISHED. WHAT MAKES A NIGGA REAL? DO YOU FEEL THAT TAKIN A LIFE MAKES YOU A REAL NIGGA? DO YOU FEEL ASSAULTING A WOMAN UP MAKES YOU A REAL NIGGA? HOW ABOUT SETTING UP YOUR HOMEBOYS MAKES YOU A TRUE NIGGA? WELL HOMIES THE ANSWER IS HELL NO!!!!!

WE NEED TO SIT BACK AND THINK ABOUT IF YOU HAVE A SON, STEPSON, COUSIN OR BEIN A MALE ROLE MODEL STOP USING THE TERM "NIGGA" IN THE YOUTHS FACE OF TODAY WHEN THEY WILL TURN IT AROUND AND USE IT THE WRONG WAY. I FEEL THAT TERM FITS GUYS WHO GO OUT TO CLUBS WITH THIS BLING-BLING AND THINK THEY ARE GOD'S GIFT TO ALL WOMEN WHICH IS A JOKE FOR REAL. WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN 15 TO 20 YEARS LATER AND YOU THINK HOW STUPID AND IGNORANT YOU REALLY SOUND WHEN YOUR SEED STARTS THAT NONSENSE SO HOW WOULD YOU REALLY FEEL IN THE END?WE NEED TO TAKE FULL RESPONSIBILITY OF OUR ACTIONS AND ALSO LET THE FEMALES KNOW WE'RE REAL MEN NOT NIGGAS WHICH SHOWS NOTHING BUT OUR TOTAL LACK OF KNOWLEDGE AND COMPASSIONATE FOR OUR SELF.

WE NEED TO SIT DOWN AND REEDUCATE OUR MALES OF TODAY ABOUT WHAT MAKES A REAL MAN INSTEAD OF BEIN A NIGGA AND PLEASE STOP THE CONSTANT ABUSE OF OUR NATURAL RESOURE, A WOMAN. SHE IS THE REASON WE ARE LIVING ON EARTH TODAY AND FOR EVERY MAN WHO ABUSES A WOMAN IT SHOW'S LACK OF CHARACTER, COWARDISM AND YOU ARE DEFINATELY NOT A REAL MAN SO PLEASE STOP THE VIOLENCE TOWARDS OUR WOMEN. iF YOU'RE A REAL MAN WHO HAS A DAUGHTER DO YOU WANT HER TO THE NEXT VICTIM?

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FLOYD MAYWEATHER IS OUTTA HIS LEAGUE....(written 2/2008)

 I'M WRITING THIS TO EXPRESS WHAT MANY PEOPLE WHO HAVE SAID THAT PRO WRESTLING IS FAKE AND SINCE I'VE BEEN IN THIS SPORT 4 A LONG TIME LET MET SPEAK 4 MY COLLEAGUES. I STARTED WORKIN BEHIND THE SCENES AND ALSO BEIN ABLE TO TRAIN WIT SOME OF THE BEST IN THE BUSINESS. YES, I HAVE HAD THE HONOR AND PRIVILEDGE TO BE FRIENDS WITH THE LIKES OF MATT & JEFF HARDY(who gave me my 1st job taping their shows in NC before they got famous),

SHANNON MOORE, GREGORY HELMS, C.W. ANDERSON, OTTO SCHWANZ and my partner and brother from anotha motha, GOTTI PLUS OTHER WRESTLERS WHO TAUGHT ME ABOUT THE BUSINESS AND 2 RESPECT IT 4 WHAT IT HAS DONE 4 MANY ATHLETES. I HAVE ONE PROBLEM WITH NON-ATHLETIC PEOPLE OR NON-WRESTLING OBSERVERS WHO THINK THEY CAN GET IN THE RING BUT THEY ARE OUT OF THEIR OWN LEAGUE. BOXERS AND WRESTLERS HAVE SIMILAR ASPECTS OF BUSINESS BUT WHEN YOU'RE IN THE RING IT'S A WORLD DIFFERENT THAN NO OTHER. FLOYD MAYWEATHER IS WITHOUT A SHADOW OF DOUBTS THE BEST BOXER POUND 4 POUND IN THE WORLD BUT WHEN HE STEPS IN OUR BUSINESS HE'S JUST ANOTHER MAN WHO GONNA LEARN THAT THIS IS PROFESSIONAL WRESTLING NOT BOXING. REMEMBER MUHAMMAD ALI LEARNED BACK IN THE 7Os THAT BOXERS CAN COMPETE IN A WRESTLING RING AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW THAN CHECK OUT YOUTUBE 4 CLIPS OF ALI versus ANTONIO ANOKI IN JAPAN AND SEE 4 YA SELF.

PERSONALLY I WANNA SEE THE "BIG SHOW" PAUL WIGHT DEMOLISH FLOYD MAYWEATHER AT THE GRANDEST STAGE IN PROFESSIONAL SPORTS, WRESTLEMANIA. I HAVE NO RESPECT 4 ANYONE WHO STEPS IN THIS SPORT AND THINK YOU STOMP WIT THE BIG DOGS. MR. FLOYD "MONEY" MAYWEATHER WILL FOUND OUT SOON WHY HE'S OUT Of HIS ELEMENT.


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IS THERE A SUCH THING AS FAMILY UNITY ANYMORE(My D.C. Heritage): pART 2

 WELL THIS IS THE HARDEST ENTRY JUST BECAUSE I'M CURRENTLY INVOLVED IN A FAMILY FEUD. I WAS BORN IN THE NATION'S CAPITAL WHICH IS VERY PERSONAL TO ME FOR THE TIMES I LEARNED ALL MY REALNESS AND SENSE OF SURVIVAL. MY FAMILY CONSISTS OF AFRICAN-AMERICANS, MULATTOS, WHITES, INDIANS PLUS WHO KNOWS WHO? I LOVE MY FAMILY LIKE I LOVE MY DORITOS WITH A DEEP PASSION. WHEN I WAS GROWING UP IN THE SOUTH I WAS PROUD TO BE FROM D.C. AND STILL DO BUT NOW LIFE IS CHANGING AND FAMILIES THERE ARE JUST STRAIGHT FAKE AND PHONY AND I LOST ALL THE RESPECT FOR THEM. I ALSO FOUND OUT THAT A DREADED SECRET MIGHT BE THE REASON WHY MY ANCESTORS REFUSED TO TELL ANY STORIES ABOUT THE PAST AND I UNDERSTAND WHY. MY FAMILY HAS A LINK TO PRESIDENT THOMAS JEFFERSON SO CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT?

WELL MY MISSION IS NOW TO DO MY THING AND JUST WORRY ABOUT MY OWN FAMILY WHICH WAS TOLD ME ONE TIME IN MY LIFE, "FAMILY IS NO GOOD WHEN YOU'RE DOWN ON YOUR LUCK but WHEN YOU GOT SOMETHING HERE THEY COME BEIN CARING WHEN THEY DON'T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU".

This is dedicated to all my peeps from St. Croix, Kingston, Jamaica, New York, D.C., Maryland, Virginia, California, Georgia, Texas, Germany, the Carolinas and anywhere in the world because there was a time when we could sing, "WE ARE FAMILY!!!!!!!"

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IS THERE A SUCH THING AS FAMILY UNITY ANYMORE(My Southern Heritage):Part 1

 IS THERE A SUCH THING AS FAMILY UNITY ANYMORE? pART 1(MY SOUTHERN HERITAGE)

Friday, January 02, 2009 9:46:39 AM

HAPPY NEW YEARS FOLKS OF TAGGED!....THIS IS THE FIRST OF MANY ENTRIES AFTER AN UNBELIEVABLE 2008 WITH CONSTANT ISSUES IN MY OWN FAMILY. MY FAMILY IN N.C. HAS DROPPED A BOMBSHELL ON ME BEFORE THE HOLIDAYS ABOUT MY ANCESTORS COMIN FROM THE ISLAND OF ST. CROIX DURING THE TIMES OF SLAVERY WHICH THERE'S LINKS TO JAMES BROWN(Godfather of Soul) AS MY RELATIVE WHICH HAS BLEW MY MIND TOTALLY SO WE DECIDED TO RESEARCH THE FAMILY TREE FOR MORE SECRETS. MY FAMILY HERE RAISED ME TO THE BEST OF MY ABILITY TO RESPECT AND LOVEONE ANOTHER AS THE BIBLE STATES SO IT'S BEEN A TRIUMPHANT SITUATION BEIN A GUY WHO HAS SO MANY CULTURES PART OF MY BLOODLINE.

MY GREAT GRANDMOTHER WAS THE ROCK THAT KEPT THE FAMILY TOGETHER BACK IN THE DAY WHEN THERE WAS SUCH THING AS FAMILY UNITY AND NOW THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS FAMILY UNITY AND TO THOSE WHO THINK SO....JUST SIT BACK STUDY YOUR FAMILY AND SEE IF THERE UNITY, TRUST, HONOR AND RESPECT IN YOUR FAMILY. DEDICATED TO MY GREAT GRANDMOTHER, FARRIE BELL ANDERSON-SAPP 1896-1982 Gone but never forgotten

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THE REALEST SHIT I'VE EVER WROTE!!, pART 1

 HEY FOLKS HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE OR WANTED SOMETHING AND YOU KNEW YOU COULDN'T HAVE IT? WELL THIS IS FROM THE HEART AND THIS WILL BE MY LAST ENTRY BEFORE LEAVING TO GO ON A SABBATHICAL EXILE.

FOR THE PAST 30 YEARS OF MY LIFE I'VE ENCOUNTERED SO MANY PEOPLE WHO GAVE ME POSITIVE AND NEGATIVE WORDS BUT I HAD TO LEARN ON HOW TO EXPERIENCE THIS CRAZY LIFE. I REMEMBER WHEN A LOAF OF BREAD WAS 50 CENTS TO WHERE IT'S $3 TO WHERE A DOLLAR COULD GET YOU A FULL BAG OF CANDY. THE WORLD HAS CHANGED SO MUCH IN MY LIFETIME BUT THE LOVE, MARRIAGE AND WOMEN HAS CHANGED SO MUCH THAT IT'S SCARY. I REMEMBER MY MOM BEIN ABUSED BY A GUY WHEN I WAS 4 AND IT WASN'T SOMETHING I REMEMBER I DIDN'T LIKE. TODAY HOW COULD A MOTHER CONDONE HER SON TO MISTREAT OR ABUSE ANOTHER FEMALE EVEN IN THEIR PRESENCE. HOW CAN A REAL MAN CALL HIMSELF A "FATHER" IF YOU CANNOT BE IN YOUR CHILD'S LIFE TO NURTURE OR MENTOR THAT SEED INTO A PRODUCTIVE PLANT THAT GROWS AND BLOSSOMS.

LADIES I'VE HEARD SO MANY ISSUES AND STORIES ON THIS SITE WHO GET OFFENDED ABOUT WHAT I SAY SO IF IT ISN'T TRUE THAN THEIR WOULDN'T BE ANY DIFFICULTIES TOWARDS ME JUST RESPECT MY HONESTY AT LEAST. WE NEED TO LOOK AT OUR YOUNG LADIES AND THINK WHERE YOU WERE WHEN YOU WERE THAT AGE? I CAN HONESTLY SAY I LOVE WOMEN BUT I CAN BE DOWN WITH THEM IF THEY CAN BE RESPECTFUL TO THEMSELVES AND BE THE DIVA NOT A WHORE, SLUT OR WHATEVER THE STREETS SAY. I LOVE YOU LADIES NO MATTER WHAT YOU ARE JUST REMEMBER I CAME FROM A STRONG BLACK WOMAN WHO WAS THE FIRST WHO I FEEL PUT THE WORD "DIVA" IN PERSPECTIVE IN MY YOUNG LIFE

FELLAS WE GOT A LOT TO DO IN THIS LIFE TO KEEP THE NEGATIVE GARBAGE FROM THE FEMALES BECAUSE IT'S A 50/50 IN ALL THIS DRAMA IN LIFE SO WE ALL CANNOT EVEN TALK. LADIES HAVE SAID THEY CAN'T BE CAUGHT WE THEY ARE CHEATIN BUT THEY CAN'T CHEAT GUILT IN LIFE JUST LIKE WE CAN'T EITHER. WE NEED TO BE HONEST WITH THESE LADIES ABOUT ANYTHING CAUSE WE MAY GET MORE POSITIVE RESULTS AND LET'S NOT FORGET THE TERM, "Don't trust a big butt and a smile", AND IT CAME FROM BACK IN THE DAY. HEY WE COULD BE WHATEVER WE WANT IF WE DIDN'T ACT STUPID AND BARBARIC TOWARDS THE LADIES BUT I KNOW SOME OUT THERE MAKE IT BAD FOR THE GOOD ONES BUT WE GOT TO STUDY THE FEMALE SPECIES.

SO LADIES AND GENTS LET'S WORK TOGETHER AND PUT GOD IN OUR LIVES TO REEVALUATE OURSELVES SO OUR KIDS WON'T GO THROUGH THIS NIGHTMARE.

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LEAN On ME (pAST AND pRESENT): PART 2

 LAST NIGHT I ACTUALLY SHED A TEAR WHEN I SAW LEAN ON ME AFTER NEARLY 6 YEARS AND I THOUGHT ABOUT WHEN BACK IN THE DAY THE GHETTO WAS A PLACE WHERE WE GOT DISCIPLINED AND UNDERSTOOD HOW WE ARE TODAY.WHAT EVER HAPPENED OUR STRONG BLACK LEADERS WHO MADE US SEE THE LIGHT? WE WERE NEVER DISRESPECTFUL TO OUR ELDERS OR DID WE MOUTH OFF AT OUR PARENTS OR GRANDPARENTS. TODAY EXCUSE MY MOUTH BUT I GOTTA GET THIS OFF MY CHEST WE ARE NOW PUNKS TO THIS SYSTEM WHERE WE CANNOT DISCIPLINE OUR KIDS UNLESS SOMEONE CALLS THE AUTHORITIES TO HAVE US CHALLENGE OUR PARENTHOOD. I REMEMBER MY GRANDMOTHER TELLING ME IF YOU CALL THE POLICE YOU'RE DEAD BEFORE THEY GET THERE AND YOU KNEW THEY WERE NOT PLAYING AND THEY SHOWED US LOVE WITH HUGS AND KISSES AFTERWARDS PLUS EXPLAIN WHY WE GOT OUR BUTTS WHIPPING. WHAT I HATE WITH A PASSION IS A KID THAT'S GONNA TELL YOU WHAT'S UP WHEN THEY HAVEN'T EXPERIENCED LIFE FOR WHAT IT IS. TODAY I HATE TO SEE A GRANDPARENT(S) WHO LET THE KIDS DO WHATEVER THEY WANT YOUNG AND KNOWING WHEN THEY HIT THOSE STREETS AS TEENS THEY TELL THEM TO FUCK OFF SO WHO'S WRONG? THIS IS EMOTIONAL TO ME BUT ON MY 21st BIRTHDAY MY COUSIN, NICHESHIA SEMPLE WAS BRUTALLY MURDERED IN THE NATION'S CAPITAL AND THE HARDEST THING ABOUT IT WAS OUR FAMILY IS BASED ON RELIGION SO YOU KNOW TO HONOR YOUR MOTHER AND FATHER SO YOUR DAYS MAY BE LONG. THE WEEKEND SHE WAS KILLED I ACTUALLY HEARD HER TOTALLY DISRESPECTED HER MOTHER WHOSE CRIPPLED AND THOUGHT ABOUT JUST GOIN TO SOME PARTY. I REMEMBER TELLING HER THAT'S YOUR MOTHER AND YOU ONLY HAVE ONE IN THIS LIFE AND ALL SHE THOUGHT ABOUT WAS THE PARTY THAT NIGHT. I TOLD HER TO RESPECT MOMMA OR YOU GONNA REGRET IT AND THE LAST WORDS I SAID TO HER WAS, "DON'T LET ME READ ABOUT YOU IN THE POST" AND SHE SAID, YEAH COUSIN LELUND OKAY. MY FAMILY FOUND OUT ALMOST A MONTH LATER SHE WAS ONE OF THE YOUNG GIRLS WHO WAS KILLED DURING A RASH OF GIRL SNATCHING INVOLVING BALLOU HIGH SCHOOL GIRLS IN D.C. AND THERE ARE SOME WHO REMEMBER IT BUT MY POINT IS WHERE IS THE DISCIPLINE AND HONOR THAT WE ARE SUPPOSE TO HAVE AS PARENTS. THE MAIN PROBLEMS IN ALL DISFUNCTIONAL HOMES IS NO TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP WITH OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST AND THEY NEED TO BE TOLD THAT YOU REAP WHAT YOU SOW AND THEY THINK THE STREETS AREN'T GONNA TAKE THEM OUT FROM NOT HAVING A DREAM.

LAST WEEK IN RALEIGH A 14 YEAR OLD TEEN WAS MURDERED IN COLD BLOOD AND THE NEIGHBORHOOD DIDN'T HAVE CANDLE VIGILS THAT ARE KNOWN WHEN A TRAGIC HAPPENS TO A CHILD BUT I'M NOT GONNA GO THERE BUT NOBODY TELLS THESE KIDS THERE LIFE EXPECTANCY IS SLIM WHEN YOU DISRESPECT THOSE WHO HAVE WALK AND EXPERIENCED THE CRAZINESS OF THE TROUBLED WORLD. SO TO ALL THOSE WHO THINK I'M WRONG WELL NAME ANY CHILD WHO EVER MADE A SUCCESSFUL LIFE OUTTA DISRESPECT AND LIVE TO TALK ABOUT IT. I FEEL WE NEED A BUNCH OF JOE CLARKS, TUPAC SHAKURS, MALCOLM Xs, AND EVEN THOSE WHO CELEBRATE MLK DAY DON'T EVEN KNOW ABOUT THE "LETTER FROM THE BIRMINGHAM JAIL AND WHAT'S THE MOST IMPORTANT LAST SEVERAL LINES IN THE " I HAVE A DREAM" SPEECH AND WE LIVING THE DREAM..........WHO ARE WE REALLY FOOLING OUR SELVES TODAY? I THINK WE TO DO A LOT OF LEANING ON OUR CHILDREN ABOUT THE IMPORTANCE OF HOW RESPECT CAN GET YOU ANYTHING IN THIS LIFE.

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GOD BLESS OUR NATION(STOP THE VIOLENCE):PART 1

 TODAY IN RALEIGH, N.C. MY NEIGHBORHOOD IS STILL SHOCKED FROM THE SUDDEN DEATH OF A 14 YEAR OLD KID WHO WAS TAKEN FROM THIS WORLD OVER STUPIDITY ON LAST FRIDAY da 13th. DAMIAN DUNN WAS A SMART KID WHO WAS A LEADER TO MANY KIDS IN THE WALNUT TERRACE PROJECTS AND WAS MURDERED FROM WHAT RUMORS ARE SAYING A DRUG SITUATION AND HIS MOTHER WAS IN THE HOSPITAL HAVING HER LEG AMPUTATED DUE TO DIABETES. HE WAS RALEIGH'S YOUNGEST VICTIM (15th HOMICIDE FOR THIS YEAR) AND I FEEL THAT WE AS PARENTS AND COMMUNITY LEADERS NEED TO STAND UP AND TAKE A STAND TO TELL OUR KIDS THE DANGERS OF THE STREETS AND ABOUT THE TRUE FACT OF LIFE.

I REMEMBER BEIN A ADVENTUROUS KID IN D.C. WHO WAS SELLING DRUGS AND DOIN WHATEVER TO GET THE PAPER BY ANY MEANS BUT IN THE PROCESS I SAW WAY TOO MUCH. I WITNESS MY HOMEBOY GETTIN HIS HEAD SHOT OFF WITH A DOUBLE BARREL SHOTGUN AND I KNEW THE DIFFERENCE IN TELEVISION AND REALISM. THERE WAS A TIME RAPPERS HAD SONGS LIKE "SELF-DESTRUCTION, HEAL YOURSELF AND WE'RE ALL IN THE SAME GANG" THAT STILL ROCKS A FLOOR TO THIS VERY DAY AND WE NEED TO REINFLUENCE OUR KIDS BEFORE THEY ALL SELF DESTRUCT THEMSELVES. THE NUMBER ONE INFLUENCE THAT KIDS TODAY ARE MISSING IS GOD AND THAT'S THE BOTTOM LINE CAUSE SLIMM BIGGUMZ SAYS SO! PLEASE PEOPLE LET'S PUT OUR HANDS TOGETHER AND PRAY FOR A BETTER NATION AND STOP THE JEALOUSY AND BACKSTABBING NONSENSE TOWARDS US AS BLACKS AND OTHER NATIONALITIES AND PRAY FOR A BETTER NATION AND MOST DEFINATELY STOP THE VIOLENCE PLEASE!!!!!!!!



"DEDICATED TO THE MEMORIES OF DAMIAN DUNN AND MY COUSIN, NICHESHIA SEMPLE WHO ARE YOUNG VICTIMS LOST IN THOSE DANGEROUS STREETS."


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WHAT WILL A BLACK MAN DO AS PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AmeriKKKa???

 TODAY I WAS WATCHING THE DOCUMENTARY, ON NATIVE SOIL AND IT OCCURRED TO ME THAT WHAT WILL A BLACK MAN DO AS PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES? WELL I HOPE THIS ENTRY IS NOT TAKIN OFFENSIVE CAUSE I FEEL US AS AMERICANS ESPECIALLY BLACK FOLKS NEED TO REEVALUATE THEMSELVES AND THINK ABOUT WHAT A BROTHER CAN DO FOR THIS COUNTRY. BEFORE WE ELECT ANY BLACK OFFICIAL WHY DON'T WE LOOK AT THEIR RESUME ON CIVIL RIGHTS, EDUCATION, HOMELESSNESS, DRUGS, RACIAL INHUMANITY, AND THEIR OPINIONS ON THE IRAQ WAR, THE 9/11 AND KATRINA VICTIMS.

TAKE A LONG, LONG LOOK AT US CAUSE WE AS WHAT I'VE BEEN CALLING MYSELF "AFRO AMERICAN" SINCE WE DON'T REALIZE THAT WE NEVER BEEN TO AFRICA NOR WE HAVEN'T SEEN MASSACRES THAT PLAQUE OUR MOTHER COUNTRY FOR HUNDREDS OF YEARS AND THINK WHY THEY HAVE MORE SAY SO IN GOVERNMENT THAT US IN OUR GOVERNMENT.

I HONESTLY FEEL THAT WE US BLACK AMERICANS HAVE THE NERVE TO SAY VOTING FOR OBAMA IS GONNA CHANGE THIS WORLD IN TIME. WHAT ABOUT DR. KING'S DREAM WHICH IS A JOKE TO ME CAUSE WE AREN'T LIVING NOTHING OF OUR ANCESTOR'S STRUGGLE FOR EQUALITY AND BEIN EQUAL TO OUR FELLOW MAN. MY KIDS ARE BEIN TAUGHT ABOUT BULLSHIT THAT'S NOT GONNA PERTAIN TO THEIR FUTURE. DR. KING AND MALCOLM X HAD SIMILAR VALUES BUT OPPOSITE STYLES THAT HELP STRENGTHEN THIS COUNTRY TO WHERE IT IS TODAY. PERSONALLY I'M AN EXAMPLE OF A CULTURAL DIFFERENCES OF MY ANCESTORS' TEACHINGS. I WAS RAISED IN THE SOUTH (NORTH CAROLINA, SOUTH HAMPTON ROADS, VA) AND I WAS TAUGHT TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER NO MATTER WHAT THE SITUATION BECAUSE OF MY LOVE FOR GOD AND WHAT THE BIBLE SAYS BUT NOW THAT SAME FAMILY NOW HATES ME BECAUSE I MARRIED OUT OF MY RACE AND THEY SAY MY GRANDMOTHER IS TURNING OVER IN HER GRAVE. REMEMBER THIS IS THE SAME PEOPLE WHO WAS WATCHING OR PARTICIPATING THE STRUGGLES WHEN DR. KING WAS ACTIVE IN RALEIGH ARE A BACK IN THE 60s.

WHEN I MOVE BACK TO D.C. MY FATHER'S MOTHER WAS CHEROKEE INDIAN AND WHITE WHO TAUGHT ME MORE ABOUT SELF THAT MY FAKE ASS COUNTRY FAMILY. MY FAMILY IN D.C. PARTICIPATED IN THE MARCH ON WASHINGTON WHICH WAS IMPORTANT TO ME FOR I STOOD ON THOSE SAME GROUNDS WHEN OVER 3 DECADES LATER I PARTICIPATED IN THE MILLION MAN MARCH WHICH WAS TO HELP STRENGTHEN OUR ABILITY TO HELP THE BLACK MAN. SO I HAVE A STRONG OPINION ABOUT THIS ELECTION WHAT BLACK FOLKS ARE REALLY TRYIN TO SAY AND I FEEL WE ARE STILL BLIND TO THE FACTS AND THE REAL QUESTION IS DO WE AS A BLACK COMMUNITY OR AS A NATION FOR A BLACK MAN TO TAKE THIS COUNTRYTO THE NEXT LEVEL.

IT'S TRULY AMAZING THE KU KLUX KLAN AND OTHER RACIAL GROUPS ENDORSES OBAMA AND TAKE A MINUTE AND THINK PEOPLE!?

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IF YOU'RE TRULY PATRIOTIC.....READ THIS IMPORTANT PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT

 WHEN WE PLEDGE TO THE FLAG IT REPRESENTS US AS AMERICANS WHO WERE TAUGHT THE IMPORTANCE OF THE RED, WHITE AND BLUE. THE QUOTE "IN GOD WE TRUST" MEANS WE ONLY TRUST GOD WHEN HE'S NEVER LET US DOWN SO THINK TO YOURSELF DO WE TRUST GOD OR DO WE TRUST MAN(Da GOVERNMENT)?

WHEN MY CHILDREN ARE NOT TAUGHT THE WAYS THAT SCHOOLS INFLUENCE OUR DECISION MAKING AS A CITIZEN OR THE POLITICAL PROCESS OF THIS HISTORICAL ELECTION. WE AS AMERICANS DON'T EVEN STOP TO THINK THAT THE REAL CANDIDATE IS WHOM?A WOMAN OR A BLACK MAN? I DON'T HEAR ANY PATRIOTIC ISSUES THAT'S PLAQUE OUR NATION SINCE THE DAYS OF THE REAGAN ADMINISTRATION SUCH AS HOMELESSNESS, DRUGS, RACISM WHICH IS NOW A HOT TOPIC IN AMERICA.

WHEN 9/11 OCCURRED IT WAS A CHANCE THE SHOW THE WORLD WE ARE A COUNTRY FULL OF COMPASSION AND LOYALTY TO THE PEOPLE. BUT SINCE THAT TRAGIC DAY IN UNITED STATES HISTORY WE'VE EXPERIENCED WATCHING OUR COUNTRY CALLING PEOPLE OF ALL COLORS DURING HURRICANE KATRINA, "REFUGEES" FOR WE ARE BORN AMERICANS NOT BEIN TORN IN A DICTATORSHIP IN THIS COUNTRY. WE AS AMERICAN HAVE OUR OWN DICTATOR, 'G.W. BUSH" WHO HAS PUT THIS GREAT NATION TO WHERE WE'LL BE EXPERIENCING THE GREAT DEPRESSION AFFECTS FOR THE NEXT 50 YEARS SO WE GOT A LONG ROAD AHEAD OF US. SO TAKE A LONG LOOK AT THIS COUNTRY FOR WHAT IT IS WORTH WHEN WHITE PEOPLE ARE BOLD TO DISRESPECT US NOW WITH MORE RACIST COMMENTS IN FRONT OF THE PEOPLE AND THE MEDIA.

THESE CANDIDATES HAVE PUT AMERICA ON A STAND STILL ABOUT ISSUES SUCH AS RACE, RELIGION, AND NOT THE REAL ISSUES. DO YOU READ OR HEAR ANY ISSUES THAT WE REALLY NEED DONE; THE IRAQI WAR, MONEY FOR ALL THE FAMILIES OF THE VICTIMS OF 9/11, HURRICANE KATRINA, A LAW PROTECTING OUR GREATEST RESOURCE IN AMERICA, OUR CHILDREN FROM ONLINE PREDATORS, SOCIAL SECURITY, HEALTH CARE FOR ALL AMERICANS AND WHATEVER YOU THE PEOPLE ARE TIRED OF TALK SHOW US, THE AMERICAN PEOPLE THAT WHO REALLY YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT US.



SO I SAY TO SENATOR CLINTON, SENATOR OBAMA, SENATOR EDWARDS AND THE GOP CANDIDATES: ARE YOU GONNA BE THE NEXT LIAR TO THE UNITED STATES OF ameriKKKa?



SLYMOTHY BIGGUMZ (D.C. 4 LIFE!)

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