Yesterday I learned a huge lesson about family is they can love you or kill you bottom line. The jealousy I’ve dealt with the past 8 years has been crazy to the point it’s becoming more dangerous to even trust my own children. Yes I don’t trust them at all because they part of a world where money is the issue. I remembered seeing my own death by a family member because it was by prophecy which doesn’t lie. So I know I may not have much time to complete whatever but if I do I am gracious and blessed to fulfill my dreams without my parents. In 2009 my mom and I had the last conversation which was bugged by the feds to where she had something very important to discuss but I blew it off. So let’s fast forward to 2012 where everything changed drastically I started off with an intense beef within my label job and it nearly got me blackballed then I got the worst news ever. I was contacted by Norfolk Police and they told me my mom was found dead but by mysterious circumstances to this very day unsolved. I was devastated that my mom was murdered and I felt her pain from it so I know what I know.
My family in DC NEVER once asked me growing up what powers I had but i had powers unexplained but I knew. My mother’s side of the family were very religious and civil rights was born in our blood so that was my home life training. I knew James Brown, yes the Godfather of Soul is my 6th cousin and never rally cared until later in life. My great great grandfather Elder Jones(from my mother’s father side) was tribal chief who was 90 years with jet black hair and he could heal anybody even himself. He never went to a doctor until he met a female who persuaded him to go and he died abruptly so inherited his powers of healing. I was 7 years old when I literally healed my grandmother cause she was so sick and I just placed my hand on her forehead and prayed to God. This was the only time I ever saw her so ill that she couldn’t get out the bed. So I never used that power but for my own personal benefits. I have a huge problem with alcohol which is a Hollins curse and my father’s father told me so and I still struggle but I can put it down anytime.
Growing up my mother wasn’t around as much but when she did it was so intense but it had impact at the same time. The Terrell Family is my link and there’s only 2 survivors left(me, of course and my REAL baby brother Rudolph Wilson, Jr.) and I promised my mother that i would find him and explain the family on my behalf. They taught me with strict discipline which molded to who I am today and I am glad they did cause it made me a man. So they also taught me to help people cause God help those who help themselves is the motto. So I always helped me people including family cause I thought its the right thing but there was a negativity I saw...........family jealousy, envy, betrayal and murders. This Hollins family has so much information that some will accept and some will deny it but its there and you can’t change it.
Now since I became apart of the entertainment industry I’ve been threatened by so many even family especially the ones I thought would never go there with me. I can bet any money these ones who’ll take my life because they jealous and angry cause they not in my position. I have had family members who are on contract and stuck under bullshit to where i can’t help them at all so its not my problem. I’ve had family members who’ve been in the industry knew about us but never acknowledge us which was strange. So once I came into Hollywood I got exposed to family secrets that revealed Eazy-E, Tupac Shakur, Jay-Z, and a huge host of others as original links to the Hollins family. So why lie about something that’s been in our family for generations and there’s more who haven’t came forward and its cool if they don’t personally.
Yesterday I had a huge fall out by a relative who’s linked plus he’s gang affiliated which goes on in the industry and its West Coast culture. So he came at me like I’m a stranger and I really don’t care cause it’s a prophecy since I was a child. I don’t trust family at all but there’s the elders who I put my trust in cause I feel the sense of my grandparents and my parents so I am good. When my mom and I separated she was hurt I left for my father but I need my father’s guidance but sometimes I felt he didn’t love me as his son. He was dealing with is secret family as his father would say to me and I was like fuck that nigga. So I became my own man and started doing me and became successful on my own. I remembered my grandfather Lucius Hollins and my uncle, Rev. Gerald Semple voiced to me not to trust my father cause he’ll turn on you and they both said its a family thing where men will betray their kids whether its a woman or weird circumstances. I thought they was crazy and did not believe them at all.
So August 2012 my father told me over the phone(our last telephone call ever) he never wanted to see me again because he said I chose Los Angeles over him and I was stunned not shocked at all. This was my father’s birthday weekend and he hurt me deeply so I hung up on him and we never spoke again. My father and I were tight until that day I hated his guts and personally I still do and forever will because he never loved me as his son. My brother Cory never met him but really I can’t speak on his behalf because I respect my brother’s privacy. My father took his job to be a father to another family that’s really made the villain when I was his first born but it’s cool I don’t need them anymore. I do communicate with my nephews or nieces cause they don’t deserve it and they know Uncle Lelund loves and supports their decision despite we never met or spent time together.
My godmother Judy McGee has always been there through it all and I became a brother to her children and we went through so much together to the point they are my family since day one. My mother’s friend was my godmother but never knew or met her. I know I have a few godfathers which I know about which my first godfather was a pimp. Mr. Paul was a cool man who taught me about the values of a woman. How I miss him and the smell of that particular cigar which I am still searching for. My second godfather Melvin Coleman was bassist for The Whispers and we met in the Wake County Jail in Raleigh, N.C. I took care of him because he was left for dead by the industry. I never knew it was that bad until I became apart of the inner circle of the entertainment industry. Lastly, my third godfather Tweed Cadillac was member of the rap group Penthouse Players Clique along with cousin Eazy’s Ruthless Records. I’m a student of great men and will continue until the cremation of my body.
The Prodigal Son has returned as my family use to nickname and it’s my favorite sermon if done right about the prodigal son. I’m a loner since birth and rather be that way because if family gonna kill me then I rather be alone anyways. I’ve been chastized, threatened, judged and convicted for whatever is rumored about me. I’ve been accused of murdering my baby momma which is a delicate story to talk about and won’t reveal anytime soon but she knows in spirit I never did that despite I know how she died. My relationship with my kids is strained to the point we aren’t close anymore and honestly I rathe rit be that way because I don’t take disrespect at all. I’ve took care of so many family members even my best friend who died this past October. Everybody who ever taught me anything or been there through the struggles and know the truth are ALL dead and it really sucks. This note was written off the dome and I had to get this off my chest and there’s more to come........Deuces!!!
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